I’m sorry you’re in pain, but your post sounds incredibly haughty and insensitive.
Just some quotes from your post to support my statement:
“the entire tragedy the occurred R”L could have been avoided if the brother who it occurred to would have listened to his rav & just done teshuva” (Maybe you should have listened to your Rav and done Teshuva)
“May you one day reach this high level” (I shouldn’t have to explain what’s wrong with this)
“To help you understand the high level so you should trust me. Moshe rabbeinu…Yirmiyahu hanavi…” (Comparing yourself with Moshe Rabeinu and Yirmiyahu HaNavi)