Ms. Princess-
It sounds like you are a few years younger than me, based on your posts. Everyone in this forum has been warning you repeatedly to get away from the fire BEFORE YOU GET SERIOUSLY BURNED. You don’t want to listen.
You claim that your intelligence is a big factor. Take it from someone who has been top of the class everywhere: raw intelligence is a gift from G-d which has many uses, but it is no substitute for life experience. I do much better than my parents and many of my teachers ever did on tests, but right now, I cannot touch their shoelaces in terms of wisdom. It’s not all about ego, “I’m smarter, I know better”; it’s about making the right decisions in life, which require more wisdom than an 18- or 19-year-old girl can have.
You did not seem to understand what MDG said about this boy’s desires. Let’s put it this way (at the risk of having this post disallowed): when boys are with girls, there is only one thing that is usually on their minds, and it’s not intellectual conversation.
As Mammele said, you finally “spilled the beans”: you like this boy and in your fantasies, he will come back on the derech and then you can marry him. That’s where you’re really getting yourself into hot water. He can drag you into a nightmare.
BE CAREFUL, BEFORE YOU GET HURT!