Reply To: Going off the Derech

smc-what dedication! I know I haven’t posted in a while, maybe bc I am hoping for a good ending….a grand finale!

Some things have improved, my son is making a concerted effort to make a change for the better. Unfortunately, he is still so wounded emotionally and won’t seek out any emotional help. Our relationship is better, but he won’t take my advice on getting help. I think that if it doesn’t come through some “round about way”, then he wouldn’t accept it anyway. Hashem is going to have to send him some shaliach who he can connect with and will be receptive to listening to on his own inititative. He is very resistant to the idea of “prearranged” or organized counseling. I somehow wish he could just bump into Rav Shimon Russell in the street, and voila! He still struggles and has deep pain, even as he is mechalel Shabbos….bc he believes he is doing something wrong! Believe me, I just don’t know how to help him. I can only love him and pray and beg the Borei Olam to save him..