WOW–
You’ll probably not even respond to my post, fine it’s your choice.
The bipolar clinical picture becomes more and more clear with each of your posts. I will keep beating my drum even if it falls on deaf ears, if only to placate my own sorrow for the entirely avoidable circumstance you find yourself in. You beg for a solution, but magically know mine has no worth. I would pay to have a conversation with your husband about with matter.
The boy you so dearly miss is trapped in the prison of mental illness and your local pharmicist is patiently holding the key, waiting for you to pick it up.