I feel trapped between two worlds.
Since I first went to yeshivah I do not feel I can go back to living in the
secular world but after having lived in Crown Heights for awhile but not having
yichus or Geszher and having been told I was “a ben Niddah”, I can never feel part
of the Heimish world, either.
So I chose a screename that reflects that I do not know if I am supposed to be here or there.
It also has a double meaning since my tribulations, make me wonder if I should be
be living in this world or if I’d be better off in the ‘afterlife’.