This is what I mean. You wrote “its because im trying to become more religious”. I think when you write religious you really mean observant. You want to do the right thing, but in many instances you find it difficult. May I introduce you to your yetser hara and yeser tov. Where things are black and white you find it easy to make a decision. Where things are gray the yester hara starts in with some very compelling arguments, sometimes it comes with very frum sounding arguments, he doesnt have a car, he needs to get to yeshiva (Im helping him learn, how great is that!).
Bottom line, whatever you do, do it with the guidance of a Rav, Mentor or whoever it is you get your halachic and hashkafic guidance from. Makes life a lot easier to navigate.