Does anyone out there hear my calls
does anyone out there care?
Will anyone give me relief from my burden
when it is too much to bear?
Does anyone read my unrhymed cries
does anyone hear the heavy sigh
will anyone give me a chance to unload
and a chance to wipe my eye
does anyone even realize when
i lie for hours in bed?
does noone know the inner turmoil
dancing around in my head?
Does noone notice the forlorn look
i can no longer hide?
the mask has cracked, i’ve been revealed
but who stays by my side?
One by one they all drift off
afraid of what they see
the pain i carry frightens them
do they know that it frightens me?
But i forge on, i forward march
i try and try again
when there is someone encouraging
when supported by mentor or friend
when you threaten to desert me
i begin to fall apart
the loneliness, it burns me deep
pierces my armored heart
my need to talk, to share my pain
at times seems unsatiable
and you wonder how much you can take
you question if i’m stable
but years of shutting emotions inside
retaliate with a vengeance
for my learning to share what i feel and think
for daring to breach that fence
yes, i have to relearn how to do it alone
but til then, you know what’d be nice?
an ear to listen with sympathy
and another to debate advice
for now, i slowly wither away
see how my spirit dies
my motivation is down to zero
my cheerful moods are lies
slipping further downward
into the darkest abyss
but you know what? Most people dont notice
i dont feel i am very missed