all the other adults
’round here seem to hate me
wish i’d up and marry
wish i’d change or leave
my acting only goes
so far til i come through
but they clearly detest it
from the faces i receive
the looks of disdain i get
the sneers and the scorn
burn deeply into my soul
break through to my heart
my armor thats erected
around my emotions
cant withstand the looks they give
the tears beg to depart
when theres a lack of compliments
a soul can become dull
no warmth to let the color shine
nor support to help it grow
but when replaced with insult
then i begin to fail
to shrivel up, and curl right in
nothing good to show
it hurts! It does! So very much!
What do u have against me?
What have i done to hurt you,
that venom will spill out?
I try so hard to be kind
and helpful to you
but my efforts seem in vain
no change do they bring about.
Sukkos, they say, be happy!
Its a chiyuv too, y’know
but when enduring put downs
its so hard to truly smile
i cannot do this any more
i retreat inside my shell
i will not offer you my help
not for the next short while
i will act civil and polite
like i always try
but will not go beyond that line
cant take the degradation
so enjoy your sukkos break
and i’ll suffer through mine
and i hope next year there will be change
and it’ll be a mutual celebration
yeah, i know it doesnt flow, or rhyme, or anything, and i’m not rereading it at all so it might not even make sense. Just had to get out the words i wish i could say….