Hi SaysMe. You have no idea how much I appreciate you asking about me. Yes, I’m busy with school, but unfortunately, that isn’t what’s been keeping from the cr lately. What’s been keeping me away is the intense emotional suffering I’ve been going through the past couple weeks. I’ve been suffering from severe loneliness. It may sound not so bad, but when one doesn’t have any support from the people who matter, in this case, friends, family, and community, it gets unbearable. I’ve been staying away from here because I didn’t feel entitled to continue giving encouragement and support to people here if I myself needed it so much. Also, I don’t want people thinking that I’m above anyone, or so strong and never sad or depressed, because in reality, I am just as weak as anyone, probably even more, and I didn’t know how to ask for a helping hand here because I never know how to ask for it, since I’m not used to being helped. Also, I’m no poet, and don’t know how to write a poem to express myself. I express myself by writing music.
And I need to apologize to everyone here, first of all for not being here the past few weeks. And secondly, for all the support and encouragement I’ve given.. because I’ve been doing it for a selfish reason, to make me feel like I am making a difference, to give me some sort of purpose. Did I REALLY have all of your well beings in mind? Was that my first priority? I don’t think it was, and I really apologize for that and hope you can all forgive me.