ICOT, that is a lovely poem! Thanks for sharing. It just makes me a little sad since I’ve never actually celebrated Purim the way you describe, because of certain things. But it’s not too late; I can always give that experience to my children, G-d willing.
No One Mourns, no problem!
blabla, I saw the following piece somewhere, and I thought it might help you a little. It’s quite long, but it’s really nice:
“There are times in life, many times actually, that the Yetzer Hara comes in all kinds of forms to try and bring you down. It comes through another person, through an event in your life, or through your own inner self. It tries to try to make you give up. To stop you from fighting and to just let it all overcome you. That’s the easiest thing to do right? Throw in the towel?
The emes is, there is nothing further from the truth! It may seem okay to give up in the beginning, but it will only lead to sadness, despair, and disappointment shortly after and you will end up having to work extra hard, because Hashem ALWAYS wants you to fight. He gives you the yetzer hara because He loves You, and He KNOWS that you are so much stronger than it. You should too!
A short time ago, I was going through one of those times myself. The yetzer hara was fighting harder than it ever has before. I knew that I could fight it, I knew that I wouldn’t give in, and I knew that I would come out from the test stronger and closer to Hashem than I ever was before. Here is something to hold on to, and to remind yourself. When you are going through one of those times, say to yourself out loud, “I am Hashems son/daughter! The Yetzer Hara can try to get me in the deepest, most hurtful ways, but it will never win. You know why? Because I am a son/daughter of Hashem Yisbarech, the Creator of the World. I am a grandchild of the Avos and Imahos. Of Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov Avinu. I am the grandson/granddaughter of Sara, Rivkah, Rachel, and Leah. I have all of their strengths inside of me, I have them davening for me. I am a descendent of Dovid HaMelech, whos words of hisbodedus got him through the greatest of challenges. Whose words of tefillah gave us the sefer Tehillim. Who gave ME that gift of prayer, to be able to get through my own challenges through his holy tefillos, as well as my own prayers.
There is no question about whether or not to give up. That is not even a part of me, because my Avos and Imahos never EVER gave up. If they didn’t, why should I? Just like they never gave up, I will never give up! Hashem never gave up on me, and He will never give up on me. He believes in me more than I believe in myself. So, I will go to battle and fight THROUGH every single challenge I face, from smallest to the biggest, and I will win. Why? Because I am Hashem’s son/daughter!” If you want, write this down and take it out when the yetzer strikes. Hopefully it will give you the chizuk that it gave me, Baruch Hashem!”
Hope that gives you some inspiration! I’m thinking of you.