SaysMe: Thank you. Your writing is beautiful, thoughtful and meaningful. Keep it up!:)
Puppy: Glad you enjoyed. How’re you doing? Still struggling with Emuna? Did you ask/look for answers?
blabla: I’m so sorry you feel that way! I know exactly how you feel. I didn’t do well in math. (BTW, the fact that I’m writing this is also a big step for me. I would NEVER admit it before!) I remember once doing bad on an algebra test. I went home crying and was beside myself for days and weeks. I constantly beat myself up that I’m dumb. Why? I did well in all other subjects. Simply because we are perfectionistic. We have to be PERFECT. We must be brilliant, the life of the party, friendly, just… EVERYTHING! You know what? It’s impossible. There’s absolutely NO ONE who’s perfect. We’re all here to work, aren’t we? Although I did well in other areas, I still had to study hard. I think most girls do. You’re not alone! Ask your friends if they feel the same. Pair up with them, study together…Make it light and have some fun. YES – FUN! Enjoy yourself! Relax!
Here’s what I wrote (while I was really anxious) about my perfectionism:
I Gotta Be Perfect
I gotta be perfect
I gotta be ideal
I must always be collected
No matter how I feel.
I gotta be perfect
I Gotta be ideal
I must excel in math
And study with zeal.
I gotta be perfect
I gotta be ideal
I must be a great cook
Sweat over a lavish meal.
I gotta be perfect
I gotta be ideal
I must be a loyal friend
Collapsing, so _____(my ex-friend) can heal.
I gotta be perfect
I gotta be ideal
I must be a devoted daughter
Clean, cook and peel.
I gotta be perfect
I gotta be ideal
By allowing my imperfection
The true ME to reveal!
Hope it helps, and good luck!