Lost in the dark,
a cave of pain,
i’m drowning in a nightmare,
i’ve got nothing to gain.
i shriek out in agony,
my cries pierce the air,
my wailing’s a tune,
my anguish can’t bare.
standing alone,
its cold and so frightning,
monsters and creatures,
thunder and lightning.
bewildered, distraught,
don’t know what to do,
abandoned, rejected,
no one to turn to.
“help” i cry out,
tears stream down my face,
I’m balling hysterically,
stuck in this place.
Battling my inner self,
Don’t know who is right,
a million voices and and powers,
a strong vicious fight,
my critic’s overpowering,
anorexia’s starving,
insecurities are winning,
holes in my heart carving.
i’m numb from grief,
i’m confused, in a daze,
i stand here helplessly,
hoping to catch someone’s gaze.
glued to trap,
not a word can I utter,
i remain in the night,
i have chills, i shutter.
its gloomy and rainy,
freezing to death,
no warmth, no support,
can’t catch my breath.
Hashem hear my pleas,
i can tolerate no more,
You know I can’t go on,
You’ll help me I’m sure.