L’Kovod Purim
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Mordechai runs to Esther and tells her to plead with Achashvairosh to annul the terrible decree. Esther says i can’t go now because I wasn’t invited and anyone showing up to the king unannounced will be killed on the spot. Mordechai, nevertheless, tells her of the desperate matziv, and to put a stop to this gezeira immediately, and even tells her “is this not why you has been given the position as queen, if not to be able to save the jews? Etc.
Question: Why was Mordechai so much in a hurry to annul the king’s decree right away, putting Esther in a mokom sakana by her showing up unannounced before Achashvairosh? The decree anyway would only take effect in 11 months from now. Eleven months! So maybe Esther’s logic of waiting 30 days until she is called in to the king, isn’t such a bad plan. You can’t wait 30 days?? Esther should put her life in danger? why?? What was the rush, and what was Mordechai’s cheshbon?
The answer may be as follows. We find by Moshe Rabbeinu the same concept. When Hashem said to Moshe he would be the leader, he said “Who am I that I should go to Pharoh, and that that I should take the jews out of Mitzrayim (Shemos 3:11)”. The Ramba”n explains this posuk that Moshe was asking Hashem (like Esther) why should I put myself in a mokom sakana, to show up at the palace and ask pharaoh to free the jews is outright rebellion, they’lll kill me on the spot!? Rather let me perhaps tell pharaoh that we should be released from our work but yet to still remain in Mitzrayim, etc.
The solution to this puzzle can be found by Krias yam Suf. We see there that the water didn’t split right away. The yeshua was still missing a MOST important ingredient in order to take effect. The water only split when there was THE one main, vital ingredient triggered by an individual named Nachshon ben Aminodov. He was willing to be moiser nefesh, and jumped in with complete faith that Hashem is right there and will surely save them. And when the waters reached his nostrils, poof, it split! In order for a yeshua to be triggered from Heaven we need mesiras nefesh! Mordechai said yes Esther your cheshbon makes sense LOGICALLY, but PRACTICALLY we need mesiras nefesh! If the yidden were to be saved, you need to be moiser nefesh! Now is the time! In order for a Moshe, or Esther to be zoiche to be a Go’el, they need to demonstrate their Mesiras Nefesh for Hashem and Klal Yisroel.
A Freilichin Purim!