moish:
a) about being the “evildoer” of your friends, I really find that difficult to be true, considering how much you’ve shown here in the cr that you do care.
b) I think I’ve said this before in the cr but I’ll take the risk of repeating it. The definition of a good jew is one who is trying to be a better one. What he looks like or does is irrelevant, he’s trying to improve and that’s what’s important. Life is not always easy and we can’t control things that happen to us. Our goal is to make ourselves better people through our own customized challenges. For example, like kapusta mentioned about ZSRF, I can’t verify but I do know of other organizations that were started by people who were given a challenge in that specific area. Two that I know for a fact are Shema Koleinu (started by parent of autistic child) and Hamaspik (started by mother who had 2 children with a rare disorder, their brains stopped growing at a young age.)
c) I am currently working my way through my own personal challenge right now and I am struggling with what I’ve been given. It’s really not easy for me, at all! Re: kapusta, point #5, it might not be what you want to hear right now and I can really understand that. Just take the thought and hide somewhere deep inside your brain to be pulled out one day in the future when be’ezras hashem this will be behind you.
~a~