I am a Rasha — I do not think I can avoid Gehinnom. I hope that I can avoid eternal punishment.
I have many sins against G-d and people.
When I was one third my age I knew almost nothing about Judaism — I only started reading Tanach. But I had real fear of G-d. In 1985, I was in high school. I remember that seeing any fire or hot object reminded me of what may be in store for me. An experiment in Chemistry where magnesium was burned in a crucible was a sort of spiritual experience for me.
Having lost the Fear of G-d is a great loss — may be the worst loss since my lost youth.