Zev7,
I am in the same boat. When I tell the person offering answers that said answers were insufficient, I was rebuffed as having something wrong with me, or that I am lacking. There are integral parts of life that need answering and so far, unfortunately, I have yet to come across someone with whom I can really discuss the “big” topics (I’ve only been able to discuss with contemporaries, ie friends, never superiors, ie rebbes/mechanchim/parents, without being rebuffed).
Catch yourself,
How can you say, “perhaps never” when there are examples of individuals on this very thread that have been ostracized for questions that they have asked?