Oh, wow, I was busy for the past few days, and didn’t not have time to waste (still don’t, but..)
PAA, the sefer I quoted from was from Rabbi Miller’s “Awake My Glory”. He was one of the greatest giants of the previous generation, (a musmach of YU, I think). A genuine Godol bTorah, giant of a baal musar, hashkafa, real chochma etc. (I have a niggling feeling he doesn’t need little me’s approbation)
Sam2, you too can look up in his books. I didn’t make up a thing, he writes a whole lot more than the little I posted.
Sorry, I subscribed to this “dangerous”, “scary”, “potentially lethal game” way of life at Matan Torah (couple of years ago), so did most of us. ???? ????? and ???? ???? ?? And that is what and how I was taught.