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RayofLight
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Golfer and OURtorah, you did not recognize my post.

I’m somewhere between autistic and normal…they call me high level aspergers, PPD or PDD? I don;t know. What about me? Someone who looks regular but just seems a little off socially?

How can people be so cruel?

It seems like no one saw my post, I’m a person too, you know??

It was really hard for me to sit and come to terms with this right now and actually post here! About this! Please reread my post.

Can someone tell me why my world is so cruel?

Why people either expect me to be normal or down syndrome and either treat me like I’m 5 or like I’m not trying hard enough.

Both are horrible.

I wish people didn”t know, every person who speaks to my mom and dad think I need to be spoken to like I’m 5 and are suddenly shocked how NORMAL I can be, every time I do something like a normal teen they get shocked and start to say how its such an acheiment, and when I make a mistake, how awful I am.

I am neither!!! The only people in the world who treat me like I’m normal are my friends, when they know the truth, and the many that don’t, and all the students in school, the nice ones and mean ones treat me like I’m normal too. It’s the only place where I feel people care. But even there I don;t feel safe. I never do.

Neither at home or in school, I never know when the next attack will come, or if I’ll have a panic attack, or burst out crying, or do something stupid and regret it.

I never feel safe, I feel like my parents don’t love me cuz they don’t know how to treat me, I only feel safe when I sleep at a friends or am with one of my best friends.

It’s so hard…

Why are people to cruel…