mytake, I take that to mean you would agree with my premise, and you are one of the (superior) minority who wishes to express her compliance to halacha with that which you feel as an essential part of living a Torah life as part of the bigger picture. You wish that, if halacha mandates x or y, that you could gain an understanding and sensitivity for that which the halacha wishes to achieve.
Congratulations to you, I applaud your non-compliance to the mainstream robotic way of living, in the face of a desire for reality. If only there were more like you.