I hear the OPs question, sadly my emunah got rocked for a split second also. However, to give up because of something which you dont even remember fully just doesnt make sense. There are obviously famous answers from gedolim to these types of questions but as of now we here are ignorant of them.
So as everyone else said, without a doubt theres a plan and that could be enough. If this is really bothering you then you should probably ask a real talmid chochom, not some random website- especialy with the fine line between kefirah and truth.