CIboy, you’re a good guy and your opinion is important and appreciated.
There is a good article called “Scared to Make Friends” by Lauren Roth on Aish. I recommend reading it.
I wish you that you should have confidence in yourself and in your abilities (which are your unique abilities since there is no person like you on earth, and therefore no person with your specific mission and specific possibilities to fulfill that mission)
I recommend also praying to Hashem to ask him for help and to use your improved abilities LeShem Tikkun Olam