What im trying to say is-
You need help. That is not good, and that is not bad. It is a FACT. I’m not gonna continue to support you like this if youre doing this to yourself. It’s hard to ask someone for help, but right now, that is what you’ve gotta do. Take responsibility for your life. I am telling you- you CAN do this! Hashem only tests you with things that you are strong enough to survive. I hope im not being too strong on you, i am only doing this because i genuinely care about you. This is what is called tough love.
Stay strong,
taom