I’m sorry you’re have a hard time –
I had a hard time a while ago too. What helped was talking to a friend/therapist. Plus, talking to Hashem helped a lot too. I read in the Garden of Emunah by Rabbi Arush and Brody, that when we are having a hard time, we should say thank you Hashem for this too, for i know that this is for my benefit. Then ask Hashem for assistance with your situation. I was desperate for advice and so I tried it. A few days later, things were better than before. I don’t know your situation, but definitely talk to a friend or someone and pray. It might take time, but may you have hatzlacha and feel better