BatMelech, it sounds like you’re in a difficult situation, and I really feel for you.
I’m not sure why you think that you need to get help from a “mekubal”.
I see others have already lectured you on the power of Tefillah. And I know that when a person is in a tzarah, sometimes it’s hard to daven. That’s why others are encouraged to daven for a choleh.
It’s understandable that you may be looking for a human connection, but does it have to be someone who you think is a “mekubal”?
Is there a Rav that you turn to with questions in Halacha, or a Rav that you know from wherever you went to school or where you daven, that you can call now? A Rav does not have to advertise his proficiency in the study of Kabbalah to be wise, caring and helpful.
And there’s also no reason that it has to be a man. A Rebbetzin or mechaneches can be a good person to talk to as well.