Reply To: I miss Chanuka!

I am doing a lot of chessed these days- it feels so awesome to do something for the benefit of someone else! I’ve tried doing that tehillim thingy SO many times AND with english trans but I never remembered and somehow it just never works out. Last night I felt so close to Hashem and I cried cuz I know if I hadn’t done some of the things I did, I’d be even closer… I read the mesillas yesharim- opened right up to the page where it says that the stuff I did are hardest to do teshuva for and they have a permanent affect on your neshoma… I said some tehillim and I was just SOBBING! All night! Why does this happen every Friday night? I don’t like my neshama yeseira, it makes me feel to guilty…